The Wages at Cookson Hills
Monday, August 10, 2015
Satan's Flaming Arrows and Our Shield of Faith
This past weekend had some ups and downs, but as the kids went off to school this morning I reflected on how God used special moments to reveal his work and plan. As houseparents, there are moments when we doubt our decisions - doubt our actions, motivations, and words. On Friday night, we had a blow-up with one of our kids. We both were left feeling stress and worry about what Saturday might hold. We reached out to our support network, but still felt very uneasy about what might unfold for the rest of the weekend.
The morning dawned and we received a supportive call which helped us firm up our plan for the day. This was good, but the most surprising moment was when each of us received a hand-written, heart-felt apology note from a child who had not shown us any remorse up until this point. My heart melted, my anger and frustration slipped away and I allowed myself to feel a glimmer of hope for what the weekend might now hold.
We continued on with Kaleb's first football scrimmage, watching him recover a fumble and cheering him on from the stands. Then I, with three of my teens including the aforementioned child, worked concessions until the end of the tournament. After the scrimmages were over and all the spectators exited, we worked side by side picking up all the litter people left near the field and under the stands. It was HOT - but it was reconciling.
We returned home and this child continued her work, this time alongside Alan at our new house on the hill. She didn't complain and she had accepted her consequences without argument. THIS WAS HUGE!!!
By Sunday, we were feeling better about the state of things in our home, but God wasn't done with me. In the evening, I met with one of my other teens to talk through her Bible Study lesson. (This is one of my favorite parts of houseparenting - one-on-one Bible studies while they move through "the process" of dating.) Her chapter was called the "Shield of Faith." The opening verse from Ephesians 6 referenced the flaming arrows of Satan. This hit me right between the eyes. Where had my Shield of Faith been Friday night? If I saw a glistening, burning arrow headed my direction would I just look at it and admire its beauty, leaving myself completely exposed or would I put up a shield for protection? Of course, I would run, hide, or lift my shield! Satan had attacked me with doubts, fears, anxiety, and I had not put up my shield. If I expect my faith from when I was 15, 21, or even 30 to protect me now - I am sadly unprepared. I need to continually strengthen my shield of faith; God has renewed my desire to seek him and I will resist the Devil and his schemes.
Blessings,
~Rachel
Thursday, November 27, 2014
A Mixed and Hopeful Thanksgiving
It's a mixed Thanksgiving day here at the Wages house. We await with eagerness on lunch with other families and my first attempt at pork ribs. All of our children (-Anna) have participated in preparing a side item. A few have taken ownership of the outside lights and decor that we'll finish later today. Kaleb is playing in a flag football game this morning with other housedads and house sons. We are hopeful for an afternoon of fun with games and positive attitudes.
With all the hopeful fun, feelings are mixed. All of our kids, and us, are away from family for the first time. A 15-minute phone call is all the contact they'll get today. Rachel and I have our thoughts divided, wishing to be close to family today. Our attention also is divided, which usually means K, P, and A get less attention from us. Feelings are also mixed here as we work with our 7 added children on their "stuff". It can be challenging at times to maintain positivity when kids take 1 step forward and 1 or 2 back. Thanksgiving of the past was full of relaxation, fruitful conversation, football, and black friday ads. This year we may get bits of each, and add concentration on allowing our kids to be responsible for their actions. I admit we are tired and emotionally on edge. At the same time we are hopeful for fun times and good memories with our Cookson families. That's pretty much describes each day...and that's why there's no way to respond to "How are you doing?" :)
For this extra thankful-focused day, Rachel and I recognize the immense value of family, friends, and community - past and present - that meet our needs and support our faith. Each time I pray when our big family I mention something to be thankful for, and each time I wonder how some of our kids can have a thankful spirit given their life story to date. I don't know their hearts, just bits of their stories, and it is vastly different than the story we've been blessed to have. So today Thanksgiving is less relaxation, football, and black friday ads - it's our day to give back and to blend our life story with kids who -today or one day - may look back and be thankful for our time together.
With all the hopeful fun, feelings are mixed. All of our kids, and us, are away from family for the first time. A 15-minute phone call is all the contact they'll get today. Rachel and I have our thoughts divided, wishing to be close to family today. Our attention also is divided, which usually means K, P, and A get less attention from us. Feelings are also mixed here as we work with our 7 added children on their "stuff". It can be challenging at times to maintain positivity when kids take 1 step forward and 1 or 2 back. Thanksgiving of the past was full of relaxation, fruitful conversation, football, and black friday ads. This year we may get bits of each, and add concentration on allowing our kids to be responsible for their actions. I admit we are tired and emotionally on edge. At the same time we are hopeful for fun times and good memories with our Cookson families. That's pretty much describes each day...and that's why there's no way to respond to "How are you doing?" :)
For this extra thankful-focused day, Rachel and I recognize the immense value of family, friends, and community - past and present - that meet our needs and support our faith. Each time I pray when our big family I mention something to be thankful for, and each time I wonder how some of our kids can have a thankful spirit given their life story to date. I don't know their hearts, just bits of their stories, and it is vastly different than the story we've been blessed to have. So today Thanksgiving is less relaxation, football, and black friday ads - it's our day to give back and to blend our life story with kids who -today or one day - may look back and be thankful for our time together.
Friday, August 15, 2014
On Chiggers, Accountability, and Ice Cream
Chiggers:
Chiggers. Have you ever…had…CHIGGERS! These little bugs that
burrow under your skin, lay their eggs, and bug you with a ferocious itch. This
is one of many bugs that would lead someone to ask, “God, why on earth did you create
CHIGGERS?!?” Our two teenage boys have chiggers on their feet…which looks similar
to pimples of all sizes. Pimples that you want to pop, and maybe some you do
pop. But regardless you scratch and scratch, and then you eat and touch things…and
only after you have touched and eaten things are you are reminded to wash your hands
after you scratch and pop. Because who could remember to wash hands when they
were a teenager!?!? Moving on...
Accountability:
A week of big highs and big lows. Now that we’ve been
houseparenting for about a month (1.5 weeks respite care, 2.5 weeks with our
own house kids), I know I’m becoming more comfortable with the design and
philosophy of parenting that is employed at Cookson. I’m reminded of the Love
and Logic quote that defines success for children as they reach adulthood, “I know
this place. I’ve been preparing for it for some time now.” When working as a
houseparent you have to see the long term picture. Today (Friday) I got caught
up in a momentary situation and forgot the big picture. And when that occurs there
is a risk of losing any progress made so far. Thankfully a reminder of the big
picture from a loving spouse (thanks Rachel) helped me revise my tone and
vision. I was then able to share in a discussion with a teen to work towards
growth and accountability. It was my wife who held me accountable and that is
exactly why we are going to be helpful to the children in our home.
I haven’t been very good at holding myself – or others – ACCOUNTABLE.
When I was a professor, I don’t think I did well at holding students
accountable. I rationalized that I was the same kind of student once. I often
was conflicted with how to respond when my expectations were not met – do I
hold them accountable to the letter of the law…or do I ease off a little…or a
lot? My other internal conflict concerned the balance between accountability
and developmentally appropriate expectations? Like all kids really, kids at
Cookson do not arrive with cookie-cutter development. So how do I hold kids
accountable while also recognizing where they are developmentally?
I’m no inspirational, motivational speaker – and sometimes I
am slow to get things, but it has occurred to me through tonight’s occurrence
that accountability is necessary to achieve GROWTH. It’s not the end-all of
growing, though it is a critical piece. Tonight Rachel helped me in our
discussion with a teen to 1) be accountable for myself, and 2) hold someone
else accountable for their choices. No doubt these 2 points may be the biggest areas
of growth for me.
Ice Cream:
Hey how about the good times!?! A big TRUTH – when a kid meets their goal, a good mood follows. One of our kids achieved the Green license for horsemanship – the first belt I think. Along with good moods, we enjoyed ice cream at Sonic, followed by a spontaneous game of tag at an open field at John Brown University. I’m so thankful Cookson recognizes the value of RECREATION for housefamilies. With a dinner chore this week, we rarely were home before 7pm. One thing for sure – our kids love to be outside. We throw the football, play basketball, hit the wiffle ball, and Kaleb loves to ride his bike around our cul-de-sac circle. Tonight we tried a little 3-on-3 game of kickball, but that kinda turned into a discussion of rules and disagreement on the score and safe/out of a player…remember those days? J We are always looking for fun and creative activities to do with our family, so if you know or find anything, please let us know!!!
Writing tonight is good reminder of the BIG PICTURE – that
our life will be a mixture of fun, accountability, growth, and probably a lot
of bugs.
Thursday, August 7, 2014
What in the world are we doing?
I'll back up and share a bit about our ministry and what we have gotten ourselves into...
Our Transition - the brief version:
January 7 I was informed that my position at ACU was being cut due to a trimming of the budget...not job performance. It happened to come at a time when I felt least satisfied
in my job (one day we'll write about how we believe God had been
preparing us for this transition). End of January we discover the job of
houseparenting and were intrigued by the ministry focus, working
together, and being a part of a community/work team committed to a
shared faith vision. Using the website Houseparent.net , we found jobs, applied/toured/interviewed in February, and agreed to a position with Cookson Hills Christian Ministries late February. We sold our house in 6 days, donated and sold countless items, moved in with mom and dad for 2 months, and had several going-away parties! The separation from my parents, and from friends, produced mixed emotions through the months leading up to our arrival at Cookson...and we still have the mixture. However, Rachel and I have been convinced that this is the job, lifestyle, and ministry we were led to be in at this time.
What is Cookson Hills Christian Ministries?
The mission of CHCM is "Providing Christ-centnered residential care, education, and therapeutic services for at-risk children ages 5-17." As a non-denominational ministry with roots in the Christian Church and Churches of Christ, CHCM has a bible-based statement of beliefs that fit our faith heritage - you can find their statement of beliefs here HERE. CHCM's strategy for meeting the needs of children include:
What we do as houseparents (HP)?
As parents we also:
For more stories about our kids and Cookson Hills, read our latest publication of Long Letter Home HERE.
Thanks for reading! Let me know if you find any formatting or pic loading issues...Alan
Our Transition - the brief version:
That Anna! Always hammin' it up! |
What is Cookson Hills Christian Ministries?
The mission of CHCM is "Providing Christ-centnered residential care, education, and therapeutic services for at-risk children ages 5-17." As a non-denominational ministry with roots in the Christian Church and Churches of Christ, CHCM has a bible-based statement of beliefs that fit our faith heritage - you can find their statement of beliefs here HERE. CHCM's strategy for meeting the needs of children include:
Brand new school opened January 2014 |
- Family-style living - kids live with houseparents and other male and female children in each home (up to 10 kids include houseparents' kids). Houseparents serve as surrogate parents.
- Educational services - Cookson has a year-round private Christian school 1st-12th grade that is accredited. Currently serving a little over 100 children, education is provided to staff and placed children. Hey, we even have sports teams...right now girls volleyball and boys/girls basketball!
- Therapeutic services - Cookson contracts with Christian, professional counselors who assist children individually, in groups, and even family counseling. In our opinion, an advantage of Cookson, compared to other children's homes, is that children here receive counseling during the school day - houseparents do not have to drive kids to and from counseling sessions. Additional therapeutic services include equine-assisted therapy - go horses!
- Recreation - Yes! When looking for HP jobs, Rachel and I were hoping to find an active community with a location conducive to outdoor activities. Children have frequent access to a playground, basketball court, and other outdoor play activities. Cookson organizes recreational activities throughout the year, particularly during the 5-week summer break and during the Spring school semester. Staff lend their expertise and share their hobbies with students through activities such as horseback riding, roping, rocket-building, scrapbooking, drama, hunter safety, disc golf, and much more. Think anyone would accept my relationships course material as "recreation"...
|
|
What we do as houseparents (HP)?
We're brand new at this. We added our first child last Tuesday, so we haven't experienced much. Simply put – we do what parents do for up to 10 children at
a time (including our own 3). Kids are expected to be respectful, learn from
their mistakes, and work on their goals as set by their social worker. Soooo we
work to hold our kids accountable, give them opportunities to grow, and have
plenty of fun too! Cookson also provides opportunities for work through the
summer work program as well as odds and ends throughout the year. Last Sunday
we unloaded the walls for one of the new houses!
As parents we also:
- Hold kids accountable for their choices and behavior
- Give opportunities for the development of faith through daily devotionals
- Check on their goals progress
- Show empathy especially when kids are stressed or emotionally not well
- Work through disagreements while modeling helpful conflict management
- Help them “find pleasure in the right ways” – as my dad likes to say
- Grow a work ethic in school, home, and campus projects
- Teach/model life skills, friendship, relationships
- Establish a family identity and plan fun events
- and more...
|
|
Who are the kids who come to Cookson?
For as many kids there are as many stories. You can probably
think of many possible scenarios for why a child is placed here, and I’m sure
Cookson children have had such experiences. One thing is for sure - something
has happened or has been going on in their life which is challenging enough to
have them be placed under the ministry’s care. Sometimes it is a difficult and
harmful family situation, sometimes more closely related to the child’s
behavioral responses to past trauma. For instance, a number of children here
are from adoptive families, many with past trauma in childhood whose teen behaviors
have become difficult to manage as they – the kids - try to cope with past
experiences, fear, stress, difficulties with trust, developmental transitions
and so on. Some children have had many different caregivers throughout their
lives, perhaps in stable and loving environments or without the stability to be
cared for with the opportunity to develop well. The hope for each child is that
reunification with the family/caregivers can be achieved. For most kids, the
plan of care includes family reunification, typically with a stay of 2 years or
more. However, a handful of kids are long-term and will live at Cookson likely through
their high school graduation. So, as a part of program services, families have
opportunities for family counseling and family training. (Shhh…given my
educational background I’ll admit I am hoping one day to work more closely with
the family training services).
Being privately funded, Cookson accepts only private
placements and has a rigorous screening process. While adhering to state
standards for a child care facility, Cookson does not have to take kids placed
by the state of Oklahoma Dept of Human Services. This matters because Cookson
can create criteria for placement that fit the goals and strengths of the
ministry team (houseparents, social workers, teachers, directors)…and can also
deny placement when circumstances would be beyond the level of care that
Cookson can provide. It is important to note that Cookson is a residential
child care facility, not a lock-down heavy disciplined-focused guarded unit – a
legal guardian can discharge their child at any time.
For more stories about our kids and Cookson Hills, read our latest publication of Long Letter Home HERE.
Thanks for reading! Let me know if you find any formatting or pic loading issues...Alan
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Beginnings...
Tuesday we added to our family - a 13-year old boy. We've been waiting for this day since March when we accepted a position as houseparents at Cookson Hills Christian Ministries. Arriving June 9th, it has taken 7 weeks to get settled in and trained for this day. It took all this time to get our house together, with pictures on the wall - unpacking with 3 youngins is like brushing your teeth with oreos. Our lives have been enriched through study, a community of support, and friends and family who have made their commitment and love to us evident through their visits. Cookson has lived up to every expectations we've had - with an emphasis on Christ-centered services and relationships - and we are learning to adapt to this unique lifestyle while maintaining our own family personality. I will admit, though, that we are still the slowest eaters in the dining hall!
Kaleb (7), Paizlee (4) and Anna (19mo.) are adjusting well to our move. Kaleb has befriended many elementary-age kids with his Pokemon and Beyblade toys. His daily routine has been to walk Roxi and then ride his bike around the paved circle. Paizlee still dreams of being a princess and a mommy and has figured out how to color with more than 1 color! And she has actually improved in her kindness to Kaleb. Kaleb's turn! (How can I explain to Kaleb that he does not have to be annoyed at Pz's singing?). The last 2 months Anna has grown - in body and communication. She loves to go on walks with her "eshu" (shoes). Less of a talker than K and Pz, Anna still finds ways to grunt and shake her way to whatever wants! Oh, and she has become opinionated, especially with her eshu choice and eating/drinking preferences.
A favorite family event - for some - we take hikes through
the Cookson property. About 995 acres left to explore... |
A few life adjustments at Cookson
Lunches and Dinners are provided during the week! We only cook breakfast and weekend meals. I've already made biscuits and chocolate! Pics of the new dining hall.
You can see your friends every day. With 6 houseparent homes on our side of the property, Kaleb is loving to play with his new friends as much as possible. He seems to focus on a single activity each week - first Pokemon, then Beyblades, basketball, lizard catching, legos, and now trampoline!
No TV - living in the woods we can't even pick up local channels, soooo what do people do with their time? Honestly it's been great not to use TV as a fallback and we play together creatively! This pic is the "Dripping Springs" waterfall at Natural Falls state park. (more impressive in person, come visit)
Walmart is a 30 minute drive. One chain restaurant (Chilis) within 30 miles, all others 50+ miles! But there is Braums. Oh yes, Braums.
Single-ply. Nuff said.
Cooler weather and green grass. An unusual summer has spoiled us with temps 70-90 degrees, rain showers (instead of thunderstorms and drought), and thick green grass to mow. Be jealous TX.
No TV - living in the woods we can't even pick up local channels, soooo what do people do with their time? Honestly it's been great not to use TV as a fallback and we play together creatively! This pic is the "Dripping Springs" waterfall at Natural Falls state park. (more impressive in person, come visit)
Walmart is a 30 minute drive. One chain restaurant (Chilis) within 30 miles, all others 50+ miles! But there is Braums. Oh yes, Braums.
Single-ply. Nuff said.
Cooler weather and green grass. An unusual summer has spoiled us with temps 70-90 degrees, rain showers (instead of thunderstorms and drought), and thick green grass to mow. Be jealous TX.
We swim in the river...and we drive a 12-passenger van down by the river.
More later, with pics of Cookson and our
house!
Let me know if you have trouble viewing the blog!
I still have more
design editing to do, and more !!! to type!
-Alan
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)